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Jan. 29th, 2012 10:50 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
silver_sunI had planned on posting the second part of A Different Path tonight, but stuff below the cut for anybody who wants to know what) has happened which means my brain really isn't in fic mode at the moment.
I will finish, but it might be a few more days yet.
I've just found out my auntie has got bowel cancer. I don't know any more at the moment than that they are sending her to a specialist in London at the end of the week.
I'm so scared that it's going to be too late for them to do anything. She's not been well for quite some time, but the local GP has always told her that it connected to her teeth. (This isn't as strange as it sounds - she was born with a cleft palet, and after some operations as a child, some of which weren't carried out very well, she was left with a misshapen jaw and crumbling, ruined teeth which after her childhood experiences meant that she's been too scared to get sorted out even now forty years later. The state of her teeth and jaw have meant frequent infections, which have lead to recurrent bronchitis.)
Trying to sort out everything in my head now in case the news on Friday is of the worst sort.
My family, and there's only six of them, seem to accumulate health problem like other people do ornaments. Lupus, fibromyalga, renal failure and subsequent transplants, arthritis, suspected diabetes, not working thyroid gland, deafness, cataracts, and Fin's who the hell knows what it is (because at the moment all the doctor's have done following the blood tests is decide that he's got very low calcium levels and have given him some calcium tablets, and told to come back in three week and they'll do another blood test.)
I must sound so awful complaining like this when I'm the one who is okay, like I'm making this about me. I don't mean it like that, I just know that sooner or later I'm going to lose them, maybe all of them, as they are nearly all 60/70+
I can't even cry, because if I do I might just fall apart, and that's going to do nobody any good at all.
Sorry for how depressing all this is, but I don't know. Sorry.
I will finish, but it might be a few more days yet.
I've just found out my auntie has got bowel cancer. I don't know any more at the moment than that they are sending her to a specialist in London at the end of the week.
I'm so scared that it's going to be too late for them to do anything. She's not been well for quite some time, but the local GP has always told her that it connected to her teeth. (This isn't as strange as it sounds - she was born with a cleft palet, and after some operations as a child, some of which weren't carried out very well, she was left with a misshapen jaw and crumbling, ruined teeth which after her childhood experiences meant that she's been too scared to get sorted out even now forty years later. The state of her teeth and jaw have meant frequent infections, which have lead to recurrent bronchitis.)
Trying to sort out everything in my head now in case the news on Friday is of the worst sort.
My family, and there's only six of them, seem to accumulate health problem like other people do ornaments. Lupus, fibromyalga, renal failure and subsequent transplants, arthritis, suspected diabetes, not working thyroid gland, deafness, cataracts, and Fin's who the hell knows what it is (because at the moment all the doctor's have done following the blood tests is decide that he's got very low calcium levels and have given him some calcium tablets, and told to come back in three week and they'll do another blood test.)
I must sound so awful complaining like this when I'm the one who is okay, like I'm making this about me. I don't mean it like that, I just know that sooner or later I'm going to lose them, maybe all of them, as they are nearly all 60/70+
I can't even cry, because if I do I might just fall apart, and that's going to do nobody any good at all.
Sorry for how depressing all this is, but I don't know. Sorry.
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Date: 2012-01-29 10:58 pm (UTC)My thoughts are with you and your family.
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Date: 2012-01-30 11:21 am (UTC)I really hope you get good news from the specialist.
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Date: 2012-02-02 01:06 am (UTC)